Be careful of your personal narratives and biases. They might be getting in your way and sabotaging your stated goals. For example:
Fundraising is not 'grovelling for money' - it's sharing your ideas and looking for partners who want to join you on the journey.
Monitor for any internal struggle between wanting to build a 'lifestyle business' and 'high-growth startup'. Both are fine, but they are different things and you should pick one intentionally.